Change. It’s always on the move, and it always looks different. The past twelve months have been particularly abundant with it.
I like change, and I fear change at the same time.
Let’s start with the renno, which is how the cool people say “renovation”.
A year ago we started the process buying a house. Now we had been watching a lot of HG Tv, so we were searching for a fixer upper. Well we found one, and within the first month of living there; we were tearing out cabinets, removing outlets, and chopping down walls.
Now here is what you have to understand about taking on projects: They can be the most freeing, exciting, and beautiful expression of our creative potential; or they can consume us. In other words of Dark Helmet, “Nah, he got the upside and I got the downside. See, there’s two sides to every schwartz.”
In my case, I was swayed by the downside. I became all but consumed with the projects. Now I still felt the positive power of designing and creating something new, and all the good that comes with it; but that can be easily overshadowed by a negative attitude.
A little background about me. I struggle with being an impatient perfectionist. I know I know, those two words can’t go together; and that is why it’s a struggle. As a child, I would spend hours creating my lego masterpieces; But if it wasn’t turning out the way I thought, or a piece fell of or the top of the tower… I would destroy the whole thing.
I learned a lot about myself during this time…I got issues man!
Patience is such a powerful attribute, and those who can learn patience in all circumstances are on Jedi level. It allows for a full enjoyment of the process, or an ability to stay true and persevere through hard times.
Perfection on the other hand is just subjective. It’s all in the eye of the beholder. I had to learn through this renno, that I am not a master carpenter, or a flooring expert, or a property brother.
There is beauty to be found in the imperfections if you will, and it’s in those imperfections that we find the uniqueness.
Long story a little shorter, I missed out on a lot of excitement and fulfillment during this renno; because I allowed myself to succumb to impatience. Looking back, I would still put in the hard work, but I would find joy in that adventure.
That is what I am now striving for each day, and I know it does not come easy. It will be a daily conscious effort to refuse to be negative, and embrace being patient.
Each day we have is a gift, let’s receive it.
I have learned a lot through this process, and I will gladly share any of my learnings with anyone who wants it.
Now, this is was just one part of that change I was talking about in the beginning of this post. In the midst of the “renno” and moving, and all that stuff; we still need to talk about death and broken teeth, so… part 2.